Written by Rhonda Logan Bailey - Heartland Church - Fort Wayne, IN Painting by Danyelle Yoder Running Lost
Resistance slashes deep as we run lost through the fields incomplete and terrified Seeking to escape the familiar false safety of fear and doubt Only to cross the Event Horizon of a fear-spiral that cascades into hopelessness, and layers us in concentric lies during the freefall, as we become unrecognizable; prisoners of self-imposed bondage, doing battle with the tyranny of our soul. We hold onto the key just long enough to give it away, remaining hostage to the darkness we’ve grown accustomed to. Once again locked away, looking at the key just out of our reach. Tears begin to fall as words take form. We call out to Hope as we cry out for help, wanting to be whole again. Begging, pleading, “Hold onto me. Help me, hear me, heal me. Holy, Holy, Holy. Hold me. Holy, hold me.” In unity, we’re screaming out these phrases, yet we hear no other voices, we’re so convinced we are alone. With unending toil, we tug in agonized desperation, sobbing secret confessions and uttering private promises. Feeling trapped in the vacuum of a hopeless hell and left exhausted from the struggle of pulling at the Bitterroot, As we experience the root break off and burrow deeper, nurtured by our own ill-advised resistance it continues intertwining to strangle us and make bitter our souls. In a weak whimper we cry, as we look up from the lowest level of our pit and time after time You reveal Your grace. When we listen to Your word and begin hearing the harmony of the phrases, we cross the threshold of trust, and realize we are not alone. Then we begin to let go of the lies we cling to, freeing our hands to grasp Yours. When we allow You, You will lift us from the depths of despair and remove the Bitterroot, turning it to dust that is blown away, as far as the east is from the west. Stagnation is exchanged for the fresh flow of Your living waters, filling the void with a healing balm of Your love, peace, hope, and joy. That renders us renewed and complete.. ~ Rhonda Logan Bailey Please join me in this prayer: May the truth of God’s love guide us all across the threshold of trust uniting the heart with the mind so we undeniably believe. In the holy name of Jesus, AMEN Scripture references: Luke 4:16-19 TPT Isaiah 61:1-3 NIV Psalm 102:20-22 MSG Psalm 103:12 MSG Comments are closed.
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